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Sunday, May 22, 2011

Thoughts....

It's 1:15 AM in India. Almost, everyone is asleep except me. I was feeling sleepy sometime back and now I am not. I think I should be more disciplined in life. Is this work fatigue or something else? I don't know.

Next week going to be tougher than what it was. Feel like taking a break. Do we really need to struggle so much? When would these people learn that process will improve everyone's life. Whether it could be delivery at work or in personal life; God please help them.


Thursday, May 12, 2011

Feeling better...

Today, I am feeling little better compared to yesterday. However, still need full recovery from this bloody viral fever. Feeling weak in the knees is the worst thing that can ever happen to a man. I think I should start working out in the gym more regularly (?) than ever.

Feeling little better for only one reason that I spoke to my best friend Sridhar for more than an hour. I always cherish the conversations I had with him either in person or over a phone call. I am blessed to have one such person in my life, who is a perfect fit for the word - friend.

Feeling lighter now! Gotta go and eat something!! Off for now!

Wednesday, May 11, 2011

Midlife crisis...????

Not sure what to call the current situation I am in. Is it the midlife crisis people talk about? Is it really there? Of late, feeling really confused, irritated and exhausted with the way my life is going ahead. My zeal and enthusiasm are dead now.

No, no...I am not depressed, thank God that I am still positive and will be positive. But there is a kind of vacuum  I am in. If you think it is about that special person in life...nope...I disagree!!

My feelings - discontent with my life, feeling bored with people and material things, confused about where my life is going!!!

That is OK with me. God willing, I think time shall resolve everything.

Logging off now!

Thursday, March 17, 2011

Depressing week...

Last week was quite depressing because of the following events -
  • Spat with a friend
  • Fever
  • Vandalism by Telangana Supporters on Mar 10
  • Earthquake followed by Tsunami in Japan
Each of these happenings gave me a new perspective or I should say renewed my understanding towards LIFE.

Point 1 - is totally uncalled for. I don't want to get into more details about this, but definitely want to mention about it in this post.

Point 2 - Due to work related pressures and Point 1, I was exhausted both physically and mentally. The day was boring and disturbed. Had a severe headache and by EOD it turned into fever.

Point 3 - I support the separate Telangana cause categorically. I strongly condemn and loathe the destruction caused by the pro-Telangana coterie on Tank Bund in Hyderabad during their so called "peaceful protest". All the idiots who participated in that rally should be jailed for at least 10 years without parole.

Point 4 – The 8.9 magnitude earthquake and followed by a huge Tsunami has pushed Japan back to Stone Age. Any day, the loss of property is nothing compared to loss of life. I was and I am really saddened by those events. And the continuous follow up visuals on different TV channels made my mood worse. The technology empire was literally torn apart into pieces and only God knows when those pieces can become one again. I am devastated at the scale of destruction that hit the mankind. It is no more a national tragedy, but a human tragedy. I am neither an atheist nor a blasphemous person, but I never knew that God can be this cruel. With this act, God has shaken few of my strong beliefs about this world. My prayers for Japan!!!

Tuesday, December 21, 2010

Inspiration

In human life there are many sources or I would say infinite sources of inspiration to become 
better in life. And there is no comparison between one source and the other. I personally believe 
we should never look down on anyone, irrespective of how small he/she is. Our creator is so 
intelligent with his creation that He well assorted the talent on this earth. 

There is one beautiful sloka about 'Inspiration' from one of the holiest scriptures of Hindu religion, Rig Veda -

"Ano Bhadraaha Kritao Yantu Vishvataha." 
(Let noble thoughts come to us from all directions)

Basically, it is just one thought, one idea, one incident and one second that takes to ignite the fire. The first and foremost inspiration a person experiences is to 'live' from the moment he/she is born.

As any other Indian cinema goer, I follow lot of movie stars' lives closely (as in I read the 'news' about 'em). An young hero from Telugu (my mother tongue) film industry revealed his thoughts on a TV show after learning how one of his hardcore fans (he is a special kid) inspired from his first movie and then discussed about what goes through his mind when he performs in front of a camera - in his words - "When we (stars) dance/act/fight in front of the camera, the only thing we see is a piece of glass (lens). Most of the times, I think how my performance is, would someone like it (behind the camera)? Would someone like my hair style / dressing style? And when I look at such people (pointing at his fan), I can say, I am happy that I have at least inspired one soul". Suddenly, I realized that a person whom I really don't care about (as a hero), can really transform someone's life to betterment. Then I understood that inspiration can flow from any person, thing or event to another person at any second!! It is that ONE moment, that really changes life forever!!

To be continued.....

Wednesday, October 27, 2010

Shattering some myths on Kashmir

A beautiful article by Mr. E. Jayakrishnan (Source: India Syndicate)

Arundhati Roy says Kashmir was never a part of India. We look at why she is wrong & why India’s position is not as vulnerable as it is portrayed to be!!

Myth I
"Kashmir has never been an integral part of India": Arundhati Roy
The Story
At the time of Indian independence, none of the princely states — Hyderabad, Gwalior, Mysore, Baroda and Kashmir, to name a few — were part of India. They were called princely states — quasi-sovereign states ruled by the Indian princes under the "suzerainty" of the British. There were as many as 568 states in India when the British decided to leave India.

In 1947, under the Mountbatten Plan, they were given two options — either affiliate with India or with Pakistan. Though most of the princely states thirsted for freedom, that option was closed at the insistence of the Congress party. Though the choice of which entity to join was left to the rulers of the princely states, it was largely understood that the religious denomination of the majority of the citizens and geographical contiguities of the states would be the preponderant determining criteria.

Kashmir fulfilled both these paramount criteria to join Pakistan — geographical contiguity with the newly-formed state and religious domination of the majority of its citizens.

However, there was a problem: The Hindu ruler of Kashmir Maharaja Hari Singh wanted something which was not on the table — azaadi, or freedom from both India and Pakistan. He wanted Kashmir to remain independent. In spite of entreaties from various quarters including from the Governor General of India, Loius Mountbatten, the Maharaja continued to dither and remained non-committal. And the situation reached a stalemate.

Jinnah and Pakistan perceived this intransigence of the Maharaja to be a clever ploy by India and Mountbatten to pluck Kashmir surreptiously from Pakistan's grasp. So, in an operation that today can be seen as a precursor of the Kargil Operation, Pakistan launched a military invasion of Kashmir on October 22, 1947.

Pashtun tribals and irregulars, morally and logistically supported by the Pakistan army, were sent in to force the Maharaja to accede to Pakistan. The invaders reached the outskirts of Srinagar, the capital. And threatened to besiege the city.

A frightened and panick-stricken Maharaja radioed Delhi for military help. The Indian leadership argued that it would not be legally possible to send in the Indian Army unless Kashmir acceded to India formally. After another bout of resistance, the Maharaja finally yielded and Mountbatten's aide V P Menon was sent to Srinagar to secure his signature on the Instrument of Accession. Once signed (on 26 October 1947), the Indian Army was airlifted to Srinagar and the Pakistani invaders were beaten back, but not before they controlled about one-third of Kashmir.

The Reality:

As soon as the Maharaja signed the Instrument of Accession, Kashmir's accession to India was complete in the legal and formal sense — the same Instrument of Accession that was signed by more than 500 other princely states. That is a fact of history, which cannot be disputed without stretching the truth. It's there is black and white. In fact, it can be argued that it was Pakistan's folly of invading Kashmir, overplaying its hand, which sowed the seeds of the Kashmir imbroglio.

Myth II
India refuses to uphold the UN-mandated plebiscite that gives the right of self-determination to the Kashmiri people: Pakistan
The Story
When the irregulars from Pakistan invaded India on October 22, 1947, Prime Minister Nehru went to the UN in good faith to call on the world body to intervene and ensure that Pakistan pull back its troops. Based on the Indian complaint and the counter-arguments of Pakistan, the UN Security Council called for not only an immediate ceasefire, but also a plebiscite to determine the wishes of the Kashmiris.

Ignoring the advice of his Home Minister Sardar Patel and Indian Army commanders that India should not agree to a ceasefire before the area captured by the invaders was reclaimed, Nehru went ahead and not only ordered an immediate ceasefire but also agreed in principle to the plebiscite — a promise that has not been kept.

The Reality

This is the instance used to castigate India for not only breaking the spirit of the UN resolution but also ignoring the legitimate aspirations of the Kashmiri people.

But just look at what UN Resolution 38 of 17 January 1948 actually says about the run-up to the plebiscite —

"The Government of Pakistan should undertake to use its best endeavours: To secure the withdrawal from the State of Jammu and Kashmir of tribesmen and Pakistani nationals not normally resident therein who have entered the State for the purposes of fighting, and to prevent any intrusion into the State of such elements and any furnishing of material aid to those fighting in the State".

Please read that again.

The much-bandied resolution, used to whip India with by the critics, clearly states that Pakistan will "withdraw" all "Pakistani nationals" and "tribesmen" who infiltrated on October 22, 1947 from the soil of the whole of Jammu and Kashmir as it existed then, without exception. This was the UN resolution's 'first condition' for the beginning of the process towards the plebiscite.

Has that condition been fulfilled by Pakistan? Has the land 'occupied' by the Pakistanis and the tribesmen in 1947 been vacated? Isn't the reality that Pakistan occupied and continues to occupy more than one-third of the territory of Kashmir?

As a way to fulfill the mandate and hold the plebiscite, will Pakistan be willing to vacate PoK now, 63 years after the resolution? The answer is written on the wall.

For all intents and purposes the UN resolution on Kashmir is as good as dead.

No wonder then that the wily but pragmatic General Musharraf gave up the usual Pakistani harping on self-determination in Kashmir for a more practical and doable out-of-the-box solution, which unfortunately is being disowned by the present Pakistani government.

Myth III
Pakistan has always stood by Kashmir, as against the brutality of the Indian security forces in the Indian side of Kashmir: Pakistan
Pakistan in Kashmir

a) Pakistan has carved out the Northern Areas (now called Gilgit-Baltistan, almost 72,971 Sq km) from Kashmir into a separate administrative and political unit. This area, which was part of the undivided Kashmir at the time of independence, has been 'annexed' by Pakistan, as it were, and separated from Kashmir.
b) In 1963, Pakistan illegally ceded 5,800 sq km in the Trans-Karakoram Tract to China. The Tract was part of the original state of Jammu and Kashmir.
c) Pakistan actively encourages "other people" to settle in PoK and have even allowed the Chinese a huge presence in Gilgit-Baltistan, ostensibly for developing the infrastructure of the region.

In contrast:
a) Territorially, the Indian state of Jammu and Kashmir is the same entity that existed in 1947, except for the portions gobbled-up by Pakistan/China.
b) The Freedom House Report, 2010, on the level of 'freedom' in PoK characterised it as "not free', while the Indian side of Kashmir was defined as "partly free".
d) No non-Kashmiri can buy as much as an inch of land in the state of Jammu & Kashmir. There has been no attempt by India to change the demographics or the state's ethnic character. The only demographic change that has happened in the state has been the "ethnic cleansing" of the Kashmiri pundits from the Valley. A mass exodus which has largely been ignored by the media and the powers-that-be.

Therefore, there is nothing much really that India has to feel defensive about. Whatever Arundhati Roy or others may put out on the air.

 

Wednesday, October 13, 2010

Why I killed "Gandhi"??
Nathuram Godse's statement in the court

"Born in a devotional Brahmin family, I instinctively came to revere Hindu religion, Hindu history and Hindu culture. I had, therefore, been intensely proud of Hinduism as a whole. As I grew up, I developed a tendency to free thinking unfettered by any superstitious allegiance to any isms, political or religious. That is why I worked actively for the eradication of untouchability and the caste system based on birth alone. I openly joined anti-caste movements and maintained that all Hindus were of equal status as to rights, social and religious and should be considered high or low on merit alone and not through the accident of birth in a particular caste or profession. I used publicly to take part in organized anti-caste dinners in which thousands of Hindus, Brahmins, Kshatriyas, Vaisyas, Chamars and Bhangis participated. We broke the caste rules and dined in the company of each other. I have read the speeches and writings of Dadabhai Nairoji, Vivekanand, Gokhale, Tilak, along with the books of ancient and modern history of India and some prominent countries like England, France, America and’ Russia. Moreover, I studied the tenets of Socialism and Marxism. But above all I studied very closely whatever Veer Savarkar and Gandhiji had written and spoken, as to my mind these two ideologies have contributed more to the moulding of the thought and action of the Indian people during the last thirty years or so, than any other single factor has done.

All this reading and thinking led me to believe it was my first duty to serve Hindudom and Hindus both as a patriot and as a world citizen. To secure the freedom and to safeguard the just interests of some thirty crores (300 million) of Hindus would automatically constitute the freedom and the well-being of all India, one fifth of human race. This conviction led me naturally to devote myself to the Hindu Sanghtanist ideology and programme, which alone, I came to believe, could win and preserve the national independence of Hindustan, my Motherland, and enable her to render true service to humanity as well.

Since the year 1920, that is, after the demise of Lokamanya Tilak, Gandhiji’s influence in the Congress first increased and then became supreme. His activities for public awakening were phenomenal in their intensity and were reinforced by the slogan of truth and non-violence, which he paraded ostentatiously before the country. No sensible or enlightened person could object to those slogans. In fact, there is nothing new or original in them. They are implicit in every constitutional public movement. But it is nothing but a mere dream if you imagine that the bulk of mankind is, or can ever become, capable of scrupulous adherence to these lofty principles in its normal life from day to day. In fact, honour, duty and love of one’s own kith and kin and country might often compel us to disregard non-violence and to use force. I could never conceive that an armed resistance to an aggression is unjust. I would consider it a religious and moral duty to resist and, if possible, to overpower such an enemy by use of force. [In the Ramayana] Rama killed Ravana in a tumultuous fight and relieved Sita. [In the Mahabharata], Krishna killed Kansa to end his wickedness; and Arjuna had to fight and slay quite a number of his friends and relations including the revered Bhishma because the latter was on the side of the aggressor. It is my firm belief that in dubbing Rama, Krishna and Arjuna as guilty of violence, the Mahatma betrayed a total ignorance of the springs of human action.

In more recent history, it was the heroic fight put up by Chhatrapati Shivaji that first checked and eventually destroyed the Muslim tyranny in India. It was absolutely essentially for Shivaji to overpower and kill an aggressive Afzal Khan, failing which he would have lost his own life. In condemning history’s towering warriors like Shivaji, Rana Pratap and Guru Gobind Singh as misguided patriots, Gandhiji has merely exposed his self-conceit. He was, paradoxical, as it may appear, a violent pacifist who brought untold calamities on the country in the name of truth and non-violence, while Rana Pratap, Shivaji and the Guru will remain enshrined in the hearts of their countrymen forever for the freedom they brought to them.

The accumulating provocation of thirty-two years, culminating in his last pro-Muslim fast, at last goaded me to the conclusion that the existence of Gandhi should be brought to an end immediately. Gandhi had done very well in South Africa to uphold the rights and well-being of the Indian community there. But when he finally returned to India he developed a subjective mentality under which he alone was to be the final judge of what was right or wrong. If the country wanted his leadership, it had to accept his infallibility; if it did not, he would stand aloof from the Congress and carry on his own way. Against such an attitude there can be no halfway house. Either Congress had to surrender its will to his and had to be content with playing second fiddle to all his eccentricity, whimsicality, metaphysics and primitive vision, or it had to carry on without him. He alone was the Judge of everyone and everything; he was the master brain guiding the civil disobedience movement; no other could know the technique of that movement. He alone knew when to begin and when to withdraw it. The movement might succeed or fail, it might bring untold disaster and political reverses but that could make no difference to the Mahatma’s infallibility. ‘A Satyagrahi can never fail’ was his formula for declaring his own infallibility and nobody except himself knew what a Satyagrahi is.

Thus, the Mahatma became the judge and jury in his own cause. These childish insanities and obstinacy, coupled with a most severe austerity of life, ceaseless work and lofty character made Gandhi formidable and irresistible. Many people thought that his politics were irrational but they had either to withdraw from the Congress or place their intelligence at his feet to do with, as he liked. In a position of such absolute irresponsibility, Gandhi was guilty of blunder after blunder, failure after failure, disaster after disaster.

Gandhi’s pro-Muslim policy is blatantly in his perverse attitude on the question of the national language of India. It is quite obvious that Hindi has the most prior claim to be accepted as the premier language. In the beginning of his career in India, Gandhi gave a great impetus to Hindi but as he found that the Muslims did not like it, he became a champion of what is called Hindustani. Everybody in India knows that there is no language called Hindustani; it has no grammar; it has no vocabulary. It is a mere dialect; it is spoken, but not written. It is a bastard tongue and crossbreed between Hindi and Urdu, and not even the Mahatma’s sophistry could make it popular. But in his desire to please the Muslims he insisted that Hindustani alone should be the national language of India. His blind followers, of course, supported him and the so-called hybrid language began to be used. The charm and purity of the Hindi language was to be prostituted to please the Muslims. All his experiments were at the expense of the Hindus.

From August 1946, onwards the private armies of the Muslim League began a massacre of the Hindus. The then Viceroy, Lord Wavell, though distressed at what was happening, would not use his powers under the Government of India Act of 1935 to prevent the rape, murder and arson. The Hindu blood began to flow from Bengal to Karachi with some retaliation by the Hindus. The Interim Government formed in September was sabotaged by its Muslim League member’s right from its inception, but the more they became disloyal and treasonable to the government of which they were a part, the greater was Gandhi’s infatuation for them. Lord Wavell had to resign as he could not bring about a settlement and he was succeeded by Lord Mountbatten. King Log was followed by King Stork.

The Congress, which had boasted of its nationalism and socialism, secretly accepted Pakistan literally at the point of the bayonet and abjectly surrendered to Jinnah. India was vivisected and one-third of the Indian Territory became foreign land to us from August 15, 1947. Lord Mountbatten came to be described in Congress circles as the greatest Viceroy and Governor-General this country ever had. The official date for handing over power was fixed for June 30, 1948, but Mountbatten with his ruthless surgery gave us a gift of vivisected India ten months in advance. This is what Gandhi had achieved after thirty years of undisputed dictatorship and this is what Congress party calls ‘freedom’ and ‘peaceful transfer of power’. The Hindu-Muslim unity bubble was finally burst and a theocratic state was established with the consent of Nehru and his crowd and they have called ‘freedom won by them with sacrifice’ – whose sacrifice? When top leaders of Congress, with the consent of Gandhi, divided and tore the country – which we consider a deity of worship – my mind was filled with direful anger.

One of the conditions imposed by Gandhi for his breaking of the fast unto death related to the mosques in Delhi occupied by the Hindu refugees. But when Hindus in Pakistan were subjected to violent attacks he did not so much as utter a single word to protest and censure the Pakistan Government or the Muslims concerned. Gandhi was shrewd enough to know that while undertaking a fast unto death, had he imposed for its break some condition on the Muslims in Pakistan, there would have been found hardly any Muslims who could have shown some grief if the fast had ended in his death. It was for this reason that he purposely avoided imposing any condition on the Muslims. He was fully aware of from the experience that Jinnah was not at all perturbed or influenced by his fast and the Muslim League hardly attached any value to the inner voice of Gandhi.

Gandhi is being referred to as the Father of the Nation. But if that is so, he had failed his paternal duty inasmuch as he has acted very treacherously to the nation by his consenting to the partitioning of it. I stoutly maintain that Gandhi has failed in his duty. He has proved to be the Father of Pakistan. His inner-voice, his spiritual power and his doctrine of non-violence of which so much is made of, all crumbled before Jinnah’s iron will and proved to be powerless.

Briefly speaking, I thought to myself and foresaw I shall be totally ruined, and the only thing I could expect from the people would be nothing but hatred and that I shall have lost all my honour, even more valuable than my life, if I were to kill Gandhiji. But at the same time I felt that the Indian politics in the absence of Gandhiji would surely be proved practical, able to retaliate, and would be powerful with armed forces. No doubt, my own future would be totally ruined, but the nation would be saved from the inroads of Pakistan. People may even call me and dub me as devoid of any sense or foolish, but the nation would be free to follow the course founded on the reason which I consider to be necessary for sound nation-building. After having fully considered the question, I took the final decision in the matter, but I did not speak about it to anyone whatsoever. I took courage in both my hands and I did fire the shots at Gandhiji on 30 January 1948, on the prayer-grounds of Birla House.

I do say that my shots were fired at the person whose policy and action had brought rack, ruin, and destruction to millions of Hindus. There was no legal machinery by which such an offender could be brought to book and for this reason, I fired those fatal shots.

I bear no ill will towards anyone individually but I do say that I had no respect for the present government owing to their policy, which was unfairly favorable towards the Muslims. But at the same time I could clearly see that the policy was entirely due to the presence of Gandhi. I have to say with great regret that Prime Minister Nehru quite forgets that his preachings and deeds are at times at variances with each other when he talks about India as a secular state in season and out of season, because it is significant to note that Nehru has played a leading role in the establishment of the theocratic state of Pakistan, and his job was made easier by Gandhi’s persistent policy of appeasement towards the Muslims.

I now stand before the court to accept the full share of my responsibility for what I have done and the judge would, of course, pass against me such orders of sentence as may be considered proper. But I would like to add that I do not desire any mercy to be shown to me, nor do I wish that anyone else should beg for mercy on my behalf. My confidence about the moral side of my action has not been shaken even by the criticism leveled against it on all sides. I have no doubt that honest writers of history will weigh my act and find the true value thereof some day in future."

-NATHURAM GODSE

Disclaimer: I got this statement from one of my friends' Facebook update and I am 100% convinced with the argument mentioned in it.

Wednesday, February 24, 2010

I lived in the times of a legend called......

.......Sachin Ramesh Tendulkar!!!

I was in the middle of fiddling with some Java code chunks and "ding" - a message popped out from my friend Bhavan, checking on me whether I am keeping a track of the scoreboard of the 2nd ODI between India and South Africa at Gwalior. Frankly, after the match fixing scandal that rocked the professional lives of many cricketers I lost interest in the game completely. I reluctantly typed a regularly visited website to know the score and to my astonishment, my blood pressure shot to an extreme and I was filled out with excitement after looking at Tendulkar's (my all time favorite sports person) score.

After the speed at which his runs rolled on the screen (in the stadium), I was unable to concentrate on the work and started tracking ball by ball update. And with my loud announcement in office, I had made my colleagues also to track the score with much excitement. As usual, everybody started praying their own Gods in all possible languages and ways to make sure that Tendulkar hits double ton. But the first unanimous request to the God was to see Sachin breaking the existing record set by a Pakistani (seriously, no one was concerned with the fact that the record was equated by a Zimbabwean cricketer).

God as usual, blessed the requests of whole of India in the same priority He received them in. At the end, Sachin went home with two world records on his name.

Actually, I started writing this post to show my love, appreciation and respect towards Sachin.I am unable to do so because of the fact that everybody knew about Sachin very well that I would end up covering only few details.

I am sure many of you have read this saying about Sachin - If Cricket is a Religion, Sachin is God!!

I am now coming up with a new statement about Sachin - Cricket is a Religion and SACHIN is the ONLY God. Period.

I love you Sachin and may God bless you and India with much more brighter future.   

Saturday, January 09, 2010

The feeling called......

The feeling that was lurking around has finally conquered me without any notice. I slowly fell into its trap and started tasting its beauty to the fullest. It took me away from what I was doing since this morning.

I was thinking rigorously about my past, recent past and immediate future and this feeling struck me suddenly and the next minute my mind was cleansed of any clutter. I was awestruck with the intensity of the feeling. It rendered me motionless for at least 10 minutes. I took sometime to construct my thoughts back into shape. Also it took sometime for me to realize what feeling struck me. It is not a new feeling in this world though. But all these days I could measure it to an extent where I could replace it with some activity that made me forget about the feeling. I went online and read few articles about that and also visited few sites that has a pictorial description of that feeling. Still, I couldn't beat it to zero.

By the way, just now I realized that one of my close friends at work had the same feeling since this morning. I hope after reading this post no one would suffer from the same feeling and I also understood that this feeling is called - BOREDOM.


Tuesday, September 22, 2009

New venture at work.....

Finance is one subject that intrigued me for years together. I never made any attempt to learn the subject or I should say I never had a chance to explore it as a part of my job. All the while, I was building different web applications for clients whose main business is manufacturing.

Now, my work is entangled with "finance" OR I would say I chose this mix-up. Options, Futures, Currencies, Derivatives, Trades, Capital markets and whatnot? I am too overwhelmed with the jargon (which would be my language hereafter, as per my Manager). Irrespective of others' opinion, I see my future in Finance.

Finance bug stung me to an extent where I am planning to take up CFA in the near future. Procured a lot of information from different people associated with the Finance industry at different levels and understood that it takes immense dedication, determination and lot of brains (?) to complete the Level - I of CFA. Now taking my first lessons in Finance and I think I am doing fairly well. Time should speak the rest.

At this point, I am little worried about my programming skills in Java. I am out of touch with programming for a good 8-9 months. The only ray of hope is that I can brush up my skills at anytime within a week and me bagging a new job buttress this point.

This post would be incomplete if I don't mention few names - Shyam, Jayaram, Aravind and JP - who are helping me in learning the domain very rapidly (at least, I feel so).

21st Century Lifelessness

Few funny lines I came across one of my friends' t-shirt:

Our Communication Wireless
Our Business Cashless
Our Telephone Cordless
Our Cooking Fireless
Our Youth Jobless
Our Religion Creedless
Our Food Fatless
Our Faith Godless
Our Labor Effortless
Our Conduct Worthless
Our Relation Loveless
Our Attitude Careless
Our Feelings Heartless
Our Politics Shameless
Our Education Valueless
Our Follies Countless
Our Arguments Baseless
Our Commitment Aimless
Our Poor Voiceless
Our Life Meaningless
Finally, Our Existence – Useless????

Sunday, August 30, 2009

Was my blog dead?

For some reason, my blog was dead for past few months.

I couldn't think of anything worthy to write about. But today, I realized that it is quite boring and opened my blog again.

I am not an avid writer. The only interesting things that happened in the recent past are:

  1. Met a girl and now she is a good friend of mine
  2. Darling cutie pie (Abhi) of Kandalam family has arrived from US

Words wouldn’t suffice to explain all the fun we have with him at home. I am happy that I could see a glow in my parents’ faces. I can’t forget the happiness n excitement in my mom’s voice when she explains me about his mischief.

I am not sure whether I will continue writing something here in the future or not. But wish I could.

Adios!!!

Thursday, March 05, 2009

Distance between hearts!!!

A saint asked his disciples, 'Why do we shout in anger? Why do people shout at each other when they are upset?'
Disciples thought for a while, one of them said, 'Because we lose our calm, we shout for that.''But, why to shout when the other person is just next to you?' asked the saint. 'Isn't it possible to speak to him or her with a soft voice? Why do you shout at a person when you're angry?'
Disciples gave some other answers but none satisfied the saint.
Finally he explained, 'When two people are angry at each other, their hearts distance a lot. To cover that distance they must shout to be able to hear each other. The angrier they are, the stronger they will have to shout to hear each other through that great distance.'
Then the saint asked, 'What happens when two people fall in love? They don't shout at each other but talk softly, why? Because their hearts are very close. The distance between them is very small...'
The saint continued, 'When they love each other even more, what happens? They do not speak, only whisper and they get even closer to each other in their love. Finally they even need not whisper, they only look at each other and that's all. That is how close two people are when they love each other.'
When you argue do not let your hearts get distant, do not say words that distance each other more, else there will come a day when the distance is so great that you will not find the path to return!!!!!!!

Friday, February 27, 2009

Oscillations of life.....
Yin & Yang

If you are a regular follower of my blog, you might have observed that of late all my blog posts are speaking little "philosophies" of life. I would say, the only reason behind the current pattern is I am looking at my life in a totally different perspective altogether.

Lot of people at work made few differences (some positive and some negative) in my life till date. Obviously, positive differences are appreciated and negative differences are being assessed so as to avoid any such further situations.


Ying-Yang: Balance of Good & Bad

We can neither be completely good nor completely bad in life. But we should always strive towards being completely good to people, society, and situations. Our behavior, response or reactions to certain situations in our lives would give away what our true nature is and also details out our future steps as well.

Monday, February 16, 2009

The Final Countdown....


Certain moments in life will leave you dumbstruck for hours together. The reasons could vary, but the reaction would be the same. You will not know what to do, what to say or how to feel about it. It would be such a situation, where all your senses would come to a seizure. A total paralysis of mind and it can occur to any person, anytime.

We allow certain persons to step into our lives thinking that they would make a difference (obviously a positive one). If we are lucky, then the climax could be matching with our expectations or could turn the things way too far from our thoughts would take us to.
When such things occur to us, we will be put in a position where we cannot judge which way to choose. Our question would be - to go with it? or to go against it? During such tough times, one should learn that only time can resolve all the unanswered questions. We should keep our spirits high, never let them down. Yes, we can't live in fear, throughout our lives. But sometimes keeping quiet can bring a serene change in our life. It is easier said than done, but only way to go.

The peace of our lives purely depends on our decisions. Decisions can never be good or bad, they are relative to the environment or context where they are made. If our decisions have the ability to influence any other person's life or lives, we should be thorough with our analysis and action. Any slightest tilt in the rationale would spoil the whole picture. Our decisions can be suicidal, but can't be homicidal. Only phoenixes can emerge from their ashes and only few people can do it.


Fear is one such thing in one's life that would make the person totally incapable of doing things that he or she would have done with utmost ease. It will curb the potential of a person without shedding the blood. It disables a person in all the ways possible. Sometimes, we name our fear for someone with the relationship we share with them. One should be mature enough to understand that nobody owns us, no matter whatever the relationship is.

Saturday, February 14, 2009

Great beliefs.....
....of one of my friends

I have found these on Sabby's (one of my friends) Orkut profile under About Me section. These beliefs are really good, when implemented thoroughly!!!!

Here the list goes:

I believe that life is there to enjoy.
I believe true love is there from the start.
I believe you should give people chances.
I believe you should treat people the same because you never know what they will do for you in the future.
I believe that good things will come to people who work hard.
I believe great things come to people who never give up.
I believe silence will teach you something if you listen hard.
I believe that the heart leads you in the right direction if you follow it.
I believe friends are needed no matter who you are.
I believe family should stick by your side.
I believe drugs destroy.
I believe sleep calms the soul.
I believe the heart and soul are more important than looks.
I believe trust helps the world go round.
I believe love brings great things.
I believe kids could teach adults a lot if adults would just listen.
I believe pets are great because they listen and love you no matter what you look like.
I believe you should always chase your dreams.
I believe hope is something everyone needs.
I believe you need to make time for fun.
I believe music soothes the soul.
I believe that money cannot buy happiness.
I believe books can take you anywhere.
I believe jokes have to be there to keep people sane.
I believe people are special the way they are.
I believe that true friends will last a lifetime.
I believe that enjoying what you do will help you enjoy life more.
I believe parents are more important than you think.
I believe the sky is the limit.
I believe you should shoot for the stars.
I believe being loved and loving are two totally different things.
I believe that you have to love yourself before you can love others.
I believe promises should be kept.
I believe a simple smile can make anybody's day better.
I believe that being popular is not the key to life.
I believe in being nice to nerds because you might grow up and have to work for one.

Friday, February 13, 2009

Love, Lies, Betrayal, and Deceit

Disclaimer: This post is not my creation. Found it very interesting and close to truth. Click on the title to take you to the original article on Ezine @rticles website.
Our romantic relationships are seldom what they seem. We all want a relationship that is built on openness, intimacy, and trust, but the truth is, our relationships do not always work that way. More often than not, our intimate relationships involve secrecy and deceit. In fact, if you want to look for deception and betrayal in your own life, the best place to start is close to home. Husbands and wives, boyfriends and girlfriends, often lie about their true feelings for each other, the feelings they have for others, and their level of commitment. Indeed, it is safe to say that people save their biggest and most serious lies for those they love.
For better or worse, our romantic relationships are full of paradoxes which we try to overlook, downplay and ignore. For the most part, this strategy works well. Until the day comes when it doesn’t, and with little warning or preparation we have to confront face-on the reality that our close relationships are not exactly what they appear to be.
Eventually, almost everyone will catch a spouse or partner in one of their lies. Inevitably, we have a difficult time coping with what we have learned and dealing with the fact that someone close has betrayed our trust. We do not expect our partners to mislead us, nor do we have insight into how and why deception occurs.
In fairness, it should also be mentioned that it is just as likely that a partner or spouse will catch you in one of your own attempts to deceive. And ironically, we are just as unprepared to deal with this kind of situation.
Ignoring the paradoxes inherent in our romantic relationships turns out to be a costly strategy and most people pay the price for this decision, unexpectedly, and all at once. It’s not so much that coming to terms with the use of deception in romantic relationships will solve all of the problems you are going to encounter, but it will certainty help to reduce the stress, anxiety, and uncertainty that occur when deception eventually comes to light.
When it comes love and romance, most of the things we believe, turn out not to be true. Most people believe that all of their marital or relational problems can be solved through “communication.” We also believe that deception is difficult to achieve, that misleading a partner requires a lot of effort and thought, and that romantic partners can tell when a lover is lying, and so on. None of these widely held beliefs, however, are supported by the evidence. Rather, our romantic relationships are held together by a delicate balance of both candor and deceit. And both are critical to making our intimate relationships work.
Romantic relationships entail two important features which allow deception to flourish: abundant opportunity, as well as the need to deceive. As we get close to another person, we intentionally and unintentionally provide them with a great deal of information about who we are, revealing ourselves through both our words and deeds. Creating this kind of intimacy or shared knowledge is critical, as it serves as the foundation for a lot of important rewards. Through our close relationships, we create gains with respect to our health, wealth, and emotional well-being.
Because relationships provide so many important rewards, it should come as no surprise that people are inclined to view their romantic partners in a positive light. We place a lot of trust in our romantic partners. We think we know them well. But while our trust surely provides us with a sense of security and comfort, it also lays the ground for deceit. For as we trust our partners more, we also become more confident but less accurate at determining when the truth is being told.
Every relevant study attests to the fact that lovers are terrible at telling when their partners are lying. In fact, detecting deception with anyone is difficult to do, but lovers manage to take this general failure to a spectacular low. Again, as we become more confident that we can tell when a lover is lying, the exact opposite turns out to be true. This “truth-bias” or “blind faith” provides the perfect opportunity for romantic partners to engage in deception. After all, who makes a better victim than someone who is eager and willing to trust everything you have to say? Not only do close relationships create a wonderful opportunity for deception to occur, they also create the need. While romantic relationships offer many rewards, they also tend to be overly constrictive. Most everyone has felt the constraints of a close relationship from time to time; quite simply you are no longer free to do what you want, when you want, and with whom you want. So intimacy provides tremendous rewards, but at an enormous cost – the loss of your freedom and autonomy.
Lying to a romantic partner helps us deal with the constraints that our intimate relationships impose. Quite frankly, deceiving a romantic partner turns out to be the most efficient and effective way of maintaining the rewards we get from our romantic relationships while pursuing extra-relational goals and activities behind a partner’s back.
How do we decide when to lie and when to tell the truth? Well, most of the time we do not intentionally think about misleading our partners. Rather such decisions are governed by our emotions and just seem to happen when the right situation presents itself. Often a sense of excitement, opportunity, and exhilaration can lead us down paths we had no intention of traveling. A sense of fear, loss, and trepidation, on the other hand, prompt us to cover-up what we’ve done and be more conservative in the short-term. Luckily our emotions are very good at reading situations and keeping our deceptive behavior within limits. Our emotions prompt us to regain some of our freedoms while also allowing us to maintain the benefits we get from our intimate relationships.
When you take a step back and put it altogether, the picture that emerges tends to be rather ironic. Because our romantic relationships are so rewarding yet constrictive, we are simultaneously more truthful and more deceptive with those we love. Additionally, we place the most trust in the person who is most likely to deceive us, just as we are most likely to deceive the person who loves and trusts us the most. These are just a few of the paradoxes that emerge when taking a close look at the use of deception in our romantic relationships. Most of what is uncovered runs counter to our most cherished beliefs about love and romance; that is, the idea that complete openness and intimacy are a central and defining feature of being in love.
Initially most people avoid looking for deception by a loved one. But as you begin to examine your own behavior more closely it becomes harder to dismiss the degree to which lies, betrayal, secrecy and deceit are ever present in our close relationships. Hopefully, you will take on a greater appreciation for the complexities of your relationships as well as a richer understanding of what it means to be in love. Regardless of the final outcome, taking a close look at deception in your life will change the way you view yourself and others.

Saturday, January 31, 2009

Love, Friendship & Betrayal

LOVE:

People are afraid of themselves, of their own reality; their feelings most of all. People talk about how great love is, but that's bullshit. Love hurts. Feelings are disturbing. People are taught that pain is evil and dangerous. How can they deal with love if they're afraid to feel? Pain is meant to wake us up. People try to hide their pain. But they're wrong. Pain is something to carry, like a radio.
You feel your strength in the experience of pain. It's all in how you carry it. That's what matters. Pain is a feeling. Your feelings are a part of you. Your own reality. If you feel ashamed of them, and hide them, you're letting society destroy your reality.
You should stand up for your right to feel your pain.

Have you ever been in love? Horrible isn't it? It makes you so vulnerable. It opens your chest and it opens up your heart and it means that someone can get inside you and mess you up. You build up all these defenses, you build up a whole suit of armor, so that nothing can hurt you, then one stupid person, no different from any other stupid person, wanders into your stupid life...You give them a piece of you. They didn't ask for it. They did something dumb one day, like kiss you or smile at you, and then your life isn't your own anymore. Love takes hostages. It gets inside you. It eats you out and leaves you crying in the darkness, so simple a phrase like 'maybe we should be just friends' turns into a glass splinter working its way into your heart. It hurts. Not just in the imagination. Not just in the mind. It's a soul-hurt, a real gets-inside-you-and-rips-you-apart pain. I hate love.

FRIENDSHIP & BETRAYAL:

Worse are those people who betray true friends because of materialistic pleasures.

When friends let you down and are not there for you when you need them the most, it is known as betrayal.

Sometimes the reason why friends betray you is just not known. When you are at the receiving end, you feel hurt, confused and angry. You demand answers as to why have you been betrayed for absolutely no fault of yours. The talks end abruptly, phone calls are not returned, letters remain unanswered and there is no contact whatsoever. Hate it as much as you want, you will have to come to terms with reality and accept that things were not meant to be.

However, if you have been at the receiving end and feel that you have been betrayed for no fault of yours, it can be very hurtful. Don't be embarrassed to cry and scream. You have been hurt and you have the right to vent out your frustration. Believe me, you will feel a lot better after you have cried your heart out. Seek out other friends, siblings or your parents and talk to them.

Tell them you have been hurt and ask them for solace. You will be surprised to see that help was just around the corner. All that you needed to do was ask.

One thing that should be remembered is that these betrayals are experiences that teach you valuable lessons in life.

Don't be afraid to seek help and talk about it to others. Such betrayals should not stop you from trusting people and making new friends.
Disclaimer: These words are not my own creation. But these words reflect what exactly I have experienced in my life so far.

Thursday, January 22, 2009

Confidence, trust & hope

Confidence:
Once all village people decided to pray for rain. On the day of prayer all people gathered and only one boy came with an umbrella.....That's CONFIDENCE.
Trust:
Trust should be like the feeling of a one year old baby when you throw him in the air, he laughs...because he knows you will catch him....That's TRUST.
Hope:
Every night we go to bed, we have no assurance to get up alive on the next morning, but still we have plans for the coming day....that's HOPE.

KEEP CONFIDENCE!!!
TRUST OTHERS!!!
NEVER LOSE HOPE!!!

Wednesday, December 24, 2008

Moments in life......

"There are some moments in life when you miss someone so much that you just want to pick them from your dreams and hug them for real"

"When the door of happiness closes, another opens; but often times we look so long at the closed door that we don't see the one, which has been opened for us"

"Don't go for looks; they can deceive. Don't go for wealth; even that fades away. Go for someone who makes you smile, because it takes only a smile make a dark day seem bright. Find the one that makes your heart smile."

"Dream what you want to dream; go where you want to go; be what you want to be, because you have only one life and one chance to do all the things you want to do."

"May you have enough happiness to make you sweet, enough trials to make you strong, enough sorrow to keep you human and enough hope to make you happy."

"The happiest of people don't necessarily have the best of everything; they just make the most of everything that comes along their way."

"The brightest future will always be based on a forgotten past; you can't go forward in life until you let go of your past failures and heartaches."

"When you were born, you were crying and everyone around you was smiling. Live your life so at the end, you're the one who is smiling and everyone around you is crying."

Don't count the years - count the memories!!!